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[31 Oct 2004|02:39pm] |
i thought things had changed and it was all good, but now i realize that i don't think they ever will.
there's a time for everything when you have to give up and let go of something.
it think it's that time.
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| best weekend everrrr..... |
[03 Oct 2004|11:10am] |
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oh man, i had the best weekend.
i'll start with friday.
it was my friend's birthday so a bunch of us girls decide to go out to celebrate it. it was me, priya, helena, celine, alex, nadine and zeina and we went dowtown to cafe nicoles to have supper at like 7. i had such a yummy supper, but so expensive. oh well. we talked and laughed and took pics. very fun.
then after, we went to a place called Barristers, it's an outside bar/club/restaurant thingy. (ps it's an arab place, zeina and nadine are arabic). we bought celine a piece of cake and then some of the girls recognized a couple of guys there. one of the guys went a bought a whole cake! so we gorged on cake. mm.
then the best part. we bought two things called "chiches" (dunno how to spell it). what it is is flavoured tobacco. it looks like a giant bong thing, without water, with a tube coming from it. you put some hot coals to get it burning and then you smoke it. it lasts for hours and it tastes sooo good. it was aple flavoured, but it tasted like tea. well the night was super fun.
saturday night:
just getting redy at home with cheryl, getting dresed up even though we dont know what we're doing when kris and adan drop by to get adam's cell phone which cheryl stole :) (by accident "apparently" lol). so we ask them what they're doing since everyone is doing something different and they tell us they're going to the casino. we're like wtf?! how is adam getting in? (Kris has a fake). and they say that you can sneak in. so we're like hey if you're bored or whatever just give us a call and we can do something.
so they leave but then 2 seconds later we hear the doorbell ring and they're like you wanna go to the casino?! SHIT YA! so we go along with cox and we actually sneak in! it was way too easy! oh i also saw alanna, a girl i worked with over the summer and we're like whaaat? (cause we're both underage)
adam bought a bunch of alcohol from the bar, didnt ID him. me and cox go straight for the slots AND WE BOTH WIN! i end up winning 26$ bitches! from slots! you NEVER win from slots! cristina wins 14$ but she soo coulda won more but she kept on going and lost some.
kris and adam play 50?50 and kris wins 10 i beleive? and adam 5.
so we were at the 50/50 table and some guy coes up to ID us! so cox cheryl and adam are screwed. i give him my fake, but it didn't work, i knew the info but apparently since it's expired it's "not a valid form of ID". fucking tards.
so we get kicked out, except for kris, whatevr we all won soemthing. haha we felt so badass, felt like we were stealing from the casino. so we're waiting for kris, and adam shows us his winnings, two 5$ chips! he wasn't able to cash them! when kris gets out, he goes back in to cash adam's, and get his fucking ID taken away! those bastards.
now we for sure have to leave. so we do, get kinda lost on the way a few times and then i bought some beer for people, at least my ID still sometimes works. we go and meet up with benj, nigga cheese or whatever the fuck his name is, crystal, pottle and mark c. we stayed there for a bit, then i had 11:30 curfew
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all in all, fucking great night, great weekend. couldn't of asked for anything better.
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[26 Sep 2004|11:01am] |
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well right now i'm in a very good mood.
they say that exercise releases these feel good chemicals and it must be true because i'm very happy.
i just finished running a 5k mother-dayghter run for the Heart and Stroke foundation with my mom, and we finished it in 33.5 minutes!!!!!!!
that means we ran an average of 1 km every 6 and a half minutes. we thought it would take us like 50min.
i saw lots of people i know, Leah D. and her mom did the 5k walk, Jackie B. did the run but she wasn't with her mom cause she hurt her knee, Stacey C. from my soccer team and her mom did the walk but also ran a lot too.
i also saw bacon's mom and sister, they were handing out water and jess i was very sad to not see you :( you were feeling sick or something?
anyway that was my morning and it was so nice, i've decided that from now on i'm going to enter a lot of races
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[15 Sep 2004|10:04pm] |
i can't stand it.
too much stress.
just a week into school and i'm already dying, i work right through my spare, i come home exhausted only to find more hours of work ahead of me. it never ends and the moment i get behind i can't catch up. i sleep lots and i'm still tired.
and stress from other places. people who think i'm being selfish or rude when i only need some more time to do what i need to do, to do my work and to sleep since that's all that i can do right now; people who just can't understand.
they empathize. but really do they know? do they care?
and university. what the fuck is that? i don't know even though i'm supposed to be there in a year. i don't understand the logistics, how it works, how to choose courses, where to go...i don't know what the fuck i want to do yet i'm supposed to make up my mind? and soon...my mind ravels itself around random ideas but no truth comes out.
i use the word "business". i try to convince myself, yeah, that's what i want to do. i mean, i should know by now right? people around me know, engineering, science, social work, history, people seem to know. i'm at a standstill.
business? i don't have any idea what that is. what do i learn? stocks? how to start one? companies and statistics? what is that all about anyway...
alright so what about science. bio, chemistry, physics? i don't know even though i've wasted my time learning about them. what can i get out of them?
and math...i enjoy math. but where does that take me? i don't want to teach it and other than that there isn't much else for it that i know of.
i'm so confused. everything is so fucked up. i don't even know my own feelings towards others, and certain people in particular because i can't get over my own difficulties.
i'm so stressed, there's stress from every corner of my life. i had a headache today for a few hours just from a physics quiz. i did alright, but what will the tests bring? and right now...chemistry is a joke. molar enthalpy..? what the fuck is that, i try to understand but i just can't. i honestly think i got dumber over the summer. i don't know what to do.
...i think i should just give up
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[09 Sep 2004|05:58pm] |
well i just finished supper and i'm sitting here wondering what to do for the rest of the night.
it feels like i'm already back in the dull routine of school. i'm tired when i get home and i have nothing to look forward to but another school day.
it also feels way too weird to not be going out every night. i must say, i really miss gb and all of it's goodness and shittyness. just being able to go out and beat the boringness of home.
i can't even fill in my time with tv. i got so used to not watching it over the summer that i can't get back into it. nothing entertains me. tonight i'm going to watch the new apprentice with my momma and i hope it's good. if not? i'll probably just sit in my room, listen to music, put picutres all over my walls and be a nerd and do my homework.
the sad thing is, this year i might actually do ALL of my homework. there's nothing better to do.
wow this is definitely a complaining entry, i'll be surprised if anyone even reads this far. i'm gonna go now and sit in my room or play some solitaire, my one addiction on the computer that i've played so much while bored i'm sick of it
bye
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[07 Sep 2004|08:33pm] |
well today was the first day of school and i must admit i'm very lame: i was looking forward to it
WAIT
before you go on thinking i'm a big nerd, it's because i get to see some people i didn't have the chance to see all summer.
meh it was normal nothing too special
my semester is pretty hard (phys, chem, calc and spare) but it's not as bad as some other peoples' schedules (they have the same as me except without the spare!)
anyways, i'm kinda sad right now i just finished watching one of my favourite movies with my hunny cheryl called braveheart. it's such a good movie it always makes me cry cause the ending is so sad.
i'm also a little confused right now. i met a guy through a friend of mine who i've already randomly met at two other parties and saw at the coliseum another time. apparently he likes me and i'm not sure yet if i like him back?
....i dont know what to do, i've never been confused like this about anything...
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[04 Sep 2004|01:13am] |
yoo man ijk so drunk!!!!!!!!!!!!
yo man cheryl telling me nooooo dont fix those damn speeling mistakes! so i wontr
yaya me n henn-a-lot just had a beer floats...
MEANING alexandre keithsd and vanilla ice cream..
not too good
DON'T TRY IT AT HOEMR KIDS!
MUAHHAHA
bye all!
i love beetr
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[17 Aug 2004|03:45pm] |
well i'm just sitting her in my basement enjoying my last few summer days at home before i leave for a couple of weeks to the ocean
i'm looking forward to it a lot, i'l get to tan and kayak with crocodiles (or is it alligators?) and hopefully scuba dive :)
also gonna stop off at new york city on teh way back to visit my bro and then we shall proceed to the hamptons where he's renting out a house with like 15 other people he knows for the summer. we'll probably end up staying there for one night.
i'm very excited for that
today i haven't done much. i slept over at henna's last night along with cox, it was nice both me and cox got to drink which doesn't happen too often cause usually one of the two of us is driving. we didn't do much, just watched what lies beneath (a frigging scary movie)
my relatives from colorado are here to visit for a couple of days, i'm looking forward to spending time with them they're the fucking funniest hicks ever, i die of laughter every time they come
that's about it, i dunno what's going on tonight but i don't know if i'll even be able to leave the house with them being here at all
ps. dont hate me?
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[13 Aug 2004|05:34pm] |
*looks at the current world's population* You must have a lot of frustration then.
What pisses you off?
Created by ptocheia
haha it's funny cause it's true
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[04 Aug 2004|01:45pm] |
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well right now I'm at work.
it's 1:30 and I'm bored as fucking hell. at least i'm listening to a good cd, it's the red hot chili peppers, by the way. It's the first time i've listened to the whole cd.
I have preschoolers this week so that means I only work in the morning and then they leave at 12 so I have the rest of the day "free" at camp. I get paid to sit around basically.
it's usually pretty fun cause my bosses are in the staff room along with me and Pat, the other preschooler cousellor but they're all off doing different errands and I'm here keeping the camp "together". HAH that's a joke cause there's no campers here right now, they're gone on day trips or gone swimming. ANYWAYS, this'll probably be a long entry.
HOMELESSFEST-A-PALOOZA if that's how you even fucking spell it. come out all it's gonna be the shiat even though i have a curfew of like 11 when i'm lucky.
i feel bad, i'm gonna be missing staci's soccer party thingy. well we knew about this first so i guess it's all good.
stuff's been good. I've been going out pretty much every single night. me and cheryl are glued to the hip it's quite sad actually cause i hate that bitch (love ya hun, muah)
i went out with kris last night, very fun. we went bowling and i completely embarassed myself. a few weeks ago i went bowling with camp and i bowled a 130 and then a fucking 1-6-5. i was so happy and i figured i'd be able to hold up my end playing him. WELL my first game was a brutal 82 or something, and he had 184 i think. HE GOT A TURKEY! my next game was better, i got 138 i think and he got like 211. argh i hate losing.
a follow up to donelly, i agree. I'm bored with summer already, i mean what people are doing. every night it's just smoking and drinking and sitting. i wanna go out and do stuff but fuck it's Ottawa. there's nothing to do. I think with my ID i'm gonna go to the casino sometime soon, anyone who's in can come.
well that was possibly my longest entry ever and i dunno if there will be others this long again. cheryl aren't you proud? henna you have to update more!
i'm out. bye all!
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[30 Jul 2004|06:47pm] |
Man it's been so long since I've updated.
but if you wanna know what I've been up to just read Cheryl's lj. I'm almots always there :)
Last night was fucking awesome, I went to a staff overnight at my boss' house and we smoked up three times in his backyard. I was stoned for like 5 or 6 hours and it was funnn.
haha everyone there was hilarious. At one point all this guy Jay was saying was ya bud. ok bud. i know what ya mean bud. in like punjabi and jamaican and all of these languages. I seriously thought i was gonna have a heart attack. I was laughing so hard for like 30 mins and i had t hld my chest cause i could feel my heart beating so fast and it was hurting. But it was all worth it.
im out.byes
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[28 Jun 2004|02:51pm] |
yea so here's michelle checkin in...
my legs are bitching at me, the walk home from helena's in cp and my fucking hardcore jogging without stretching killed them. they're crying.
last night was..well like it has been said, the same old. im getting sikc of people always smoking up and meeting and sitting around, i dunno i wanna DO something.
(but jess made it better cause i like seeing you hun! we have to chill more :)
yeah so it was fun after, me henna adam kris went to kris' and juts sat around for a bit then played some pool.
oh my fucking god.
my mom is officially an idiot. okay, i went home at like 930 for 2 seconds to get my swim suit. i tell her we're all going to kris house and i dunno when we'll be back we're just gonna stay there fr a bit. so we do and i call at 1120 saying im coming home soon and she was MAD AT ME. she said i shoulda called and said for sure when i was coming home EARLIER. god, do i have to check in at my house like every hour? i had talked to her like 2 hours before. whatever man if she gets mad that easily then its her problem.
anywho i shall talk to you all later.
HAVE FUN ON CANADA DAY IF I DONT SEE YOU!!!
love you all
michelley
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[20 Jun 2004|12:22pm] |
soo...whats new.
well i got my haircut yesterday. Its so short, i still dunno if i like it. Takes soe getting used to.
Im dying my hair today, the brightest red i could find that wasnt a fake one like manic panic and such. It should suit my hair i hope.
Last night was alright, it was a clean night for everyone... for once! Me cox and henna went driving around and we're like i bet there's people at gb so we go and sure enough there's double mark (no donnelly) pottle scott and kris. We decide to all sit in my van for a while and then some cop pulls up. Hes like hello have you guys been drinking? and we're like no we're just sitting here. And there's so many of us we keep on interrupting he's like let me finish!!!! jesus he didnt say it nicely either. So he said that there's been lotsa complaints about driniking at gb blah blah so its not gonna be a good idea to go to gb for a while which sucks cause its like our main fucking meeting place. The cop fucking came at like 1045! they usually come at like 12.
Oh well.
So we all go to cox's after, cant go in her hottub cause her dad'll get mad. So we go to her basement and play a 8 person game of asshole. Actually it was pretty fun. I was president and vice pres for a while :)
and that's about it...
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[18 Jun 2004|11:23pm] |
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yeah im just sitting at home bored...everyone went to the creek i think? but i wanted to be with prim so me and her watched a movie. The movie was called monster and it's about a prostitute who becomes a lesbian and such. Its pretty good, a little too drawn out though.
Last night was fun, went to gb and got drunk, i wasnt dd so it helped. I thought i lost my last beer but it ended up that helena took it. We played some football and i went barefoot and stepped on something hard and now i have a bruise on the bottom of my foot that hurts a shitload.
ah i wanted to write more but i gotsta go
byeeeeee
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[08 Jun 2004|03:58pm] |
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| michellexx's LJ stalker is screwxthisxx! | | screwxthisxx is stalking you because you got better results for the 'acronym' thing than them. They are also mentally deranged! |
hahaaaa helena you seem to be a very popular stalker...just like in real life! but you better stay away from me you're mentally deranged! (how sad, also no1 likes you) man you've got problems..
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[06 Jun 2004|12:06pm] |
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now im bored
i just read my last entry and it's so confusing, i think i had so many thoughts coming out at once they got all jumbled
if you dont understand too bd im not explaining it again and trust me ill jut probably start bitching again
fuck
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[06 Jun 2004|11:57am] |
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well if you wanna have a shittyass saturday night just call and i could set you up! that was the worst night ever...first of all i was driving alex around, whatever thats fine it's her b-day but i used a fuckig half tank of gas, my parents are gonna make me pay for it and alex gave me 5 bucks only...so we went to some random party in glebe, nice house (yeah cheryl the highlight of the night was the five foot cock) ;) and we didnt know anyone, they were all older and alex just goes and sits in the middle and ignores us...then we wanna leave so we go to a different "party" (there were like 5 people) and we sit there and watch tv but by that time its like 1130, we havent done anything fun yet, my friends havent even had the chance to get drunk yet cuz im driving so much..oh yeah we had to drive two of her friends thats fine but then they asked for a ride back to the other party...oh and meanwhile alex is talking shit about us and saying how oh if she has to come back with us then it'll be boring and she'll be sitting around all night...anyways i was like i have a curfew and so they say ill just drive them back close to it..in other words like right at the party...so i do, wasting more time and gas and then alex leaves without saying thanks and she doesnt even tell cox shes not staying over at her house anymore..actually she doesnt even say bye to cox at all
oh also, i forogt to call my parents for the second night in a row...they were fucking pissed off but i told them was a shitty fucking ass night we had (i even cried a bit! i love drama) and they were alright..but still if i hadnt been driving so much maybe i woulda remembered..
ah sorry for the bitching but it made me feel better i love you all, IM OUT
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Just bored at home...eatin some white chocolate macadamia nut cookies yum they're so good. henna, adam, cheryl and kris came to soccer last night fun fun it was. I had the stang and my girls from my team were impressed (woo jess you're right i am badass in that car) ;) good times there will be this summer ROAD TRIP MAN! and maybe some camping on teh side...well im tired so im out byes
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